The Audience Dilemma
This topic is huge; I still can’t get my head around all the various aspects and angles. I’m not sure what it would take to exhaust the subject, but I’ll do my part and toss in a little something. I will not answer the age old question “How does one get an audience” for I have already asked it once before (under a different context) and I still don’t have an answer. Instead I want to lay out a dilemma I have created.
In the world of fiction I have only encountered a scant few reasons to be an author. The most obvious, and the most failed, is to write as a way to make a living (although I imagine most settle for making money). The next most obvious is to be famous, and again this isn’t all that likely. Another reason to be an author is so you can just tell stories regardless of making money. I fall in that later category.
Now it seems to me there are two basic modes of writing, and it all has to do with intent. You can write with the intent to share the story, or you can write to sooth your inner writer and forever keep your stories to yourself. Of the first kind you have those who intend to share the story via publication, and then … to share without publishing, or rather to share without getting into the business of publishing and selling stories.
If only I were the kind of writer who could content himself with writing stories for myself, or even only sharing them with my wife and any future children we might have. Unfortunately I want an audience, and yet I don’t want to publish my stories in the traditional ways. For me I write stories (or fragments in my current condition) because I want to create written art, and if I am to toil over my stories the way I tend to (perfectionism: learn to love it or hate yourself, it’s your choice) I want to share my masterpieces with the world.
I am fussy about my stories. Like most people I have a hard time taking criticism in regards to those things which I care greatly about. With the exception of my novel I have put much of my heart and soul into my stories, and often they say exactly what I want them to say and in the way I want to as well; any attempt at editing my stories is often met with hostility, which makes me an unpleasant author to work with for sure. It might be different if I cared less about the art and cared more for the craft, but I still haven’t been able to do that just yet.
Bearing this all in mind I have thought long and hard about audiences. If I want to share my stories with people I have to put them in a place where they will read them. Until I build up a name for myself I cannot expect people to find my stories if I just post them on the Internet. Thus it seems I will have to suck up my pride and submit stories for publication and take my licks, working toward that day when I can quit publication and just post my stories on the Internet. Funny isn’t it? I don’t care about the money, I just want the audience, and to me that seems much harder to come by than the money.