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December 1, 2004

Life After NaNoWriMo

I will say this past month has been eye opening. I never thought I would be able to achieve what I have without more work than I put into it. That does not mean I didn’t put forth a mammoth amount of effort to pour out 50,000 words in just 30 days; that was something akin to a herculean task. In the aftermath I now know that I could most likely accomplish a mere 20,000 words a month and consider that comfortable. The shock I have in making that statement makes November worthwhile. I would have thought it impossible to write close to 200 pages in a month (double spaced). And yet I did it. I did it because it was only 50,000 words, which meant 2,000 words a night, and after I figured out I could do 1,000 an hour … well the math is rather obvious is it not?

I like living post-NaNo because I proved to myself (and I am my harshest judge, critic, jury, and executioner) that you can eat an elephant if you only eat it one bite at a time. Looking back I amazed myself. My usual critical self was locked in a closet and threatened within an inch of its life and I was free; I was free to write whatever I wanted to write no matter how bad I thought it was, and in the end I no longer thought it was bad. When I came across a spot that I did not know what to do with, not knowing how to comfortably get from once scene to the next, I told my critic to, “Shut-up!!” and simply made the transition happen. When the outline was getting stale I kept on writing and found new life hidden under some frond of a fern decorating the forest trail of my outline, and I was excited again. Indeed, this entire month was exhilerating, to the point that I cannot wait to start writing again (and I need to, I have weekly obligations with Promethean Logophile).

There is one thing I do not want to forget, something extremely surprising to me. There were two days that I managed to write out 5,000 words in a sitting/session (I didn’t remain seated the entire time). I thought those two days would be the hardest days I would face. I went into those days completely dejected and defeated, convinced I would not do more than 3,000 words before losing interest and desperately wanting a break. I was wrong. I was right in the effect that I did want a break, but that was before I started writing, and I did want a break while I was writing, but that was probably due to my deprivation of fun. Those two days found me digging deeper into my story, pulling out more detail, and more interest on my part in my tale. I don’t really want to have to do it again, it was not much fun spending an entire Sunday afternoon and evening writing and not resting for Monday’s work activities, but knowing that I have enough interest in my story that prolonged exposure actually got me excited instead of tired, that is something I want to keep with me.

From here I still have a long journey ahead of me. I only completed five chapters (for a fun exercise, calculate the average length of my chapters) and am perhaps a third of the way through part one (oh dear, oh dear). It has been suggested that I write a trilogy instead of a novel, and I might have to do just that. I’m not sure what will be involved structurally speaking, but I do know I will have to add in more climaxes and some resolutions (and probably more sub plots so individual books can seem complete). As for my writing in general, I will contribute to the afore mentioned site as well as my blog (which as been sadly devoid of new content most of the month of November). I will keep this site around to jot down any further notes as they come to me, reflections of NaNo. I do not yet know if I will keep a writing blog or journal in general. I’m not sure if I will need one, but if I do, I will announce it here. I do plan on cleaning up my five chapters and releasing an eBook version, which I will announce or post here, so stay tuned.

“So long, and thanks for all the fish.”

P.S. I will take a least a week off to watch T.V. and movies, read books and magazines, and generally relax. Consider the sloth, for I will be he.

November 12, 2004

Stunning Accomplishment

Progress

I’m not sure if I should be terribly excited, ashamed, embarrassed, stunned, or a combination thereof. I’m on target as of this morning. I needed to be at 20,000 words by the time my head hit the pillow last night (to meet my own goals) and I hit it, exactly (so I wrote 25 more words for good measure). Looking back at yesterday, I was quite a handful to deal with, spewing words of frustration and fear at those who know me best, for I really thought I was going to remain behind. I was down 1,500 words, had a meeting, and then found out my in-laws were making a surprise visit from out of state and that’s when all Hell broke loose. Despite, or maybe because of, the circumstances I made up my deficit and then pushed forward to complete my 2,000 word goal. I managed to write nearly 1,000 words on my lunch break (I’ve usually taken that time to just relax), wrote a few hundred at the meeting, and hacked out another 1,800 when I got home. (At times like this I can imagine my mother calling me “prolific”.)

Observation

At the meeting last night, one of the few participating gentlemen complimented me on my diligence, having read some of this blog (hullo, hullo!) and I merely passed it off a “being lucky.” As I later thought about that, I discovered it’s true in some senses, but not really true at all. I too have been noticing that I am meeting my goals consistently (or making them up) and am well on my way to “winning”. I really cannot say how I am doing it, or where I am finding the motivation to write, so I can only shrug my shoulders about my diligence and just say, “It happens”. Even then I’m trying to figure out how and why, because I will not finish the book at 50,000 words, so I will need to continue writing well beyond the end of NaNoWriMo and the biggest challenge for me will be to maintain a good writing habit and finish the book.

If I have any “secrets” about my “success” it would be a few simple points:

  1. I have nearly my entire book outlined, so I know where I am at, what happens next, and what I should be writing, at all times.
  2. I flatly refuse to edit or proofread anything I write (until I am done).
    1. I refuse to accept edits, corrections, and changes on anything I write (until I am done).
  3. I don’t care how bad things sound, while I write them. I’m more concerned with getting the story done than with making it “pretty” (until I edit).

Maybe this will help some people, maybe it won’t. This is what I have to do just to get the story told, for I am a perfectionist and would otherwise never finish the story (I’ve got a file folder full of these) because I would get stuck on a spot that was not good enough. Hopefully I will find that I can finish this book, then edit it and make it sing with a pleasing harmony, so my readers will stop gouging their eyes out.

Revelation

This will probably be my first and my last NaNoWriMo (though who can tell). I set out to see if I could first of write a book, second of all write 50,000 words in 30 days. I know the answer to those two questions already (though I should wait until I am done to see if my knowing was really knowing … I just love epistemology). The pace being set for me is too much. Too many pieces of my life are on hold, and I cannot sustain that for much longer than a month. There are things I want to do, people I want to visit with, and having to push everything aside just to write 2,000 words a night … there is not enough payoff in the end to make it worthwhile. One thing I will need to figure out, come December, is what pace is comfortable. I will say I am satisfied that I am writing and that it is going well, but I don’t like seeing everything else around me begin to decay.

October 30, 2004

Inspiration: I Should Have Known

I must be slow, that can only explain it. I forgot about inspiration; I forgot inspiration happens spontaneously; I forgot inspiration can be found in all variety of places, if you think to look, observe, and take notes; I forgot inspiration can be a large boost to any plot development. I have been running into mental burnout faster than I had hopped, which in turn added more pressure, which created stress, which cut my creativity. Instead of fighting it, I gave my brain a break and watched some TV. I am glad I did, for not only did it help relax my mind but it provided me with a slew of plot points, so much so that one undefined leg of the journey is now nearly complete (I have to figure out one more, the “endgame” and a half-dozen more points for 2 other legs).

In all my stress to push for development of my plot (so I have less of that to do when the time comes to actually write) I forgot that watching TV or reading books can be a source of material to add to my own story. I can call it “research” (to an extent) while I am relaxing and being entertained. This last time, I thought of a race of “people” that would be cool to work with sometime, so I added it and expanded my book in a big way. The best part of this is, I get to enjoy watching TV as a break, and then I can get charged up about my story all over again and eager to write.

With that said, I think I will take another break and watch more TV. My brain is at that “fry point” and I want to make sure I have room on the PVR for a football game this afternoon. ;)

October 22, 2004

Why My Plots Have Failed

It was only this morning that I realized why my plots have failed, up until this point that is. I usually start out with an idea, then I start adding to the idea, and I start answering some questions about the idea (so I can better fill it out). Somewhere along the way I don’t like what I see, and I scrap the entire plot and start all over again, meaning I lost time. This almost happened last night, but due to not having time to play around with a plot I ignored the part I did not like, and low-and-behold I made some additions and an adjustment and now I really like the plot!

Specifically, the hero of my tale would set forth to retrieve The Package for his master. On the return journey the hero will find out The Master will use The Package for evil ends. I had set the hero to take The Package and flee to another kingdom thereby securing peace for a time. Yuck. I was not liking it, and I could not figure out why The Package (who is human) would go along with this in the first place. Then it struck me. The Package, through circumstance, will have no choice but to flee, for his life. The hero will take The Package to another kingdom, and from there The Master will be defeated.

It took me until this morning to realize the import of this. I should not throw away my plots because I do not like them. There was a time that I was not happy with the end, nor with The Package, and those were two rather large pieces of my plot. Without The Package there is no quest, no quest means no story. Instead I was able to add a new ending (my original “ending” is there, but it no longer ends the tale) and give a better purpose for The Package. It is my hope that in the future, when I work on plots, I will remain calm when I do not like something and come back to it later. In this case it worked great!

Maybe a little pressure, a deadline, actually will help me.